Wednesday, January 20, 2010

i'm a sucker for estrogen

I gave money to a crack whore today.

I went in this morning for a final blood and ultrasound check before confirming our FET for Tuesday, 1/26. There are currently 4 estrogen patches on my belly, as I am in the pretend-ovulation phase of my fake-menstrual-cycle in the leadup to embryo transfer. You can definitely tell that I'm hopped-up on estrogen because I'm getting sentimental and teary-eyed with the slightest provocation.. like a bad chick-flick on cable.. or a soup commercial. I had warned my coworkers that I may be on the warpath this week, expecting major bitchiness, but it turns out that I'm a pathetic sap.

So as I walk out of the clinic, this disheveled woman walks up to me with some wacky story about how she's HIV-positive and pregnant and she needs to get to this hospital across town where she's being treated. Normally I'd have walked on by and rushed off to work. But she was so distraught and she said she was 3-months pregnant and bleeding and I just got sucked in! She asked me to drive her to the hospital, which wasn't about to happen. Then she asked for cab fare and I gave it to her. I helped her hail a cab and get in, even though the security guard at the nearby office building gave me a disapproving look and said "be careful".

I knew at that moment that most likely I was being scammed, but I just couldn't help it. The estrogen got the best of me. I coughed up some money on the off-chance that this lady would really go to a place that will give her some needed treatment. I know what it's like to be early in pregnancy and bleeding. I know what it's like to be in the 2nd trimester and bleeding. And to have a chronic disease and possibly homelessness on top of that? Yikes.

So maybe I helped someone today. Probably not.

My bloodwork and ultrasound were good, so we are a "go". We're transferring a single 5-day grade-AA blast next week. Yeah, you read that right - I'm a 39-year-old doing a single embryo transfer. Cocky? Maybe. The RE encouraged it and I'm okay with doing repeat FETs if needed. More on my rockin' frosties next time.

15 comments:

  1. Hi! Stopping by from ICLW, well done on getting closer to your FET! I hear you on the oestrogen patches, but fingers crossed it will all be worth it! Fran

    ICLW #90

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  2. The lady got in the cab, right? So no matter what, some of that $ went toward that (even if she just went around the block). I say, good for you, Good Samaritan award of the day.

    Good luck, too, on your FET! My girlfriend just found out she's prego w/ twins from her double xfer (at age 39), so you're gonna be just fine with one! Yay! ICLW

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  3. You never know, right? Lots of luck on your transfer! Go frosty! :) ICLW

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  4. Wishing you luck on your transfer! And helped her, didn't help her, all that matters is that the thought and action was there, so good on you!!

    ICLW
    Rach
    www.thegalwho.wordpress.com

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  5. Hope you have a good FET!

    That was such a crazy situation. I hope it helped if she was being truthful.

    ICLW
    http://daega99-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/

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  6. Cocky is a good thing!! Be assured that we have our virtual fingers crossed for your FET. If you have a chance come visit us at Infertility is the New Black. Happy ICLW!!

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  7. So can I borrow some money? ;-) LOL, I've been a sap too like that...not these days, the Fuck Cancer hat scares them off.....but definitely in the past, and I didn't even have the hormones to blame! :-o

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  8. It's better to give your money to a crack whore than the government. At least she'll use on it something useful to her. Good luck on your transfer next week and I love the pic you found. Great job.

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  9. I always figure if they are scamming me it is on their soul. At least I know I did the compassionate thing. Kudos.
    Good luck with your transfer.
    ICLW

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  10. I can understand that. Good for you for giving her the benefit of the doubt, but I'm so glad you didn't let her get in the car with you!

    Best wishes with this cycle!!

    Christina
    iclw

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  11. All you can do is hope she wasnt scamming and pray for the poor girl either way. Good luck on your FET! :)

    ICLW

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  12. Happy ICLW! Oh well, hopefully she got some help - I think good on you for trying. Good luck with your FET and I don't think you're that cocky - I had a single transfer and am 38. All the best!

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  13. Eh, you paid for a cab, not a hit. You still did a good thing today 8-)

    ICLW

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