i'm a sucker for estrogen

I gave money to a crack whore today.

I went in this morning for a final blood and ultrasound check before confirming our FET for Tuesday, 1/26. There are currently 4 estrogen patches on my belly, as I am in the pretend-ovulation phase of my fake-menstrual-cycle in the leadup to embryo transfer. You can definitely tell that I'm hopped-up on estrogen because I'm getting sentimental and teary-eyed with the slightest provocation.. like a bad chick-flick on cable.. or a soup commercial. I had warned my coworkers that I may be on the warpath this week, expecting major bitchiness, but it turns out that I'm a pathetic sap.

So as I walk out of the clinic, this disheveled woman walks up to me with some wacky story about how she's HIV-positive and pregnant and she needs to get to this hospital across town where she's being treated. Normally I'd have walked on by and rushed off to work. But she was so distraught and she said she was 3-months pregnant and bleeding and I just got sucked in! She asked me to drive her to the hospital, which wasn't about to happen. Then she asked for cab fare and I gave it to her. I helped her hail a cab and get in, even though the security guard at the nearby office building gave me a disapproving look and said "be careful".

I knew at that moment that most likely I was being scammed, but I just couldn't help it. The estrogen got the best of me. I coughed up some money on the off-chance that this lady would really go to a place that will give her some needed treatment. I know what it's like to be early in pregnancy and bleeding. I know what it's like to be in the 2nd trimester and bleeding. And to have a chronic disease and possibly homelessness on top of that? Yikes.

So maybe I helped someone today. Probably not.

My bloodwork and ultrasound were good, so we are a "go". We're transferring a single 5-day grade-AA blast next week. Yeah, you read that right - I'm a 39-year-old doing a single embryo transfer. Cocky? Maybe. The RE encouraged it and I'm okay with doing repeat FETs if needed. More on my rockin' frosties next time.